Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Themes and chronology.

As I've been saying for a while, I've decided to put together a volume of poetry for publication. Now, I'm nowhere near complete - I know that it's currently a little scant, and I've been feeling like writing more poetry lately anyhow. The problem I've been facing is deciding how to organize all of the poems I have. Chronologically? Alphabetically? Thematically? Some combination of these?

I asked for feedback on my Facebook page, and the answer I got unanimously was to organize alphabetically within themes. After doing so, however, I realized that they didn't read well together. But chronologically in themes? The poems almost tell a story if read in order, and that's too good to pass up. So chronologically in themes it is.

Here are my rough ideas for divisions thus far:
  1. Poems about mental health and feelings of depression, etc.
  2. Poems about both the good and the bad of a particular past relationship; when read chronologically, it's ridiculously obvious how unhealthy that relationship was.
  3. The Feminine Obsession. These poems were written for a project with the same name, and it's about unrequited, nearly stalker-like love towards women.
  4. Poems about a hypothetical succubus who makes for interesting subject matter, who I simply refer to as "she."
  5. Poems about my current relationship. Hooyah.
  6. The rest of the poems. There are quite a few, but they don't fit neatly into themes.
Aside from "The Feminine Obsession," I have yet to name any of these sections. I will definitely keep posting as more happens. Have a good week!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Hello there, internet.

As people who follow my other networks may have noticed, I once again have internet! This should hopefully mean that I will be updating much more with my writing and thoughts and such again.

My internal debate about writing today was whether I wanted to write letters to people I miss, or whether I wanted to write poetry. I wound up reading instead, but I think that means that one of those two options will likely happen tomorrow.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Long time no type.

Hello, lovelies. Sorry about the long lapse between posts. As anyone who follows my personal social networks knows, I haven't had internet since May 11 - the day we moved into a new house we're renting. We'll in theory get internet at the house on Tuesday.

I haven't had much time to write, even without the internet to distract me. Packing and unpacking, dog getting neutered and then infected, finding out I have the beginnings of carpal tunnel syndrome, having house guests...the world has been busy lately.

But things will settle down soon, and then I'll have more news to share. In the meantime, if anyone has information on human trafficking that they'd be willing to share, shoot me a message!

Monday, May 6, 2013

The Fall of Ophelia

Thou did say that thou loved me once, my lord,
And sent me tokens of devotion pure.
The next thou scoffed and claimed that I had whored,
A slander from thy lips I shant endure.
A harlot I am not, and thou knew this
Before the edges of thy mind were frayed.
Thy mother begged thou share my nuptial kiss,
But thou turned cruel, and she and I dismayed.
Better or worse - thou knows I think no thing,
For all my thoughts are planted there by men.
This double-dealing caused me suffering,
But to refuse? I'd not see day again.
"Thy kind makes monsters," once accused thy voice.
Well unlike us thy kind does have the choice.

O Hamlet, I've just seen my father slain,
His heart torn through with thy so noble sword.
No hope for me in life shall e'er remain -
They think thee mad? I'll show thee mad, my lord.
Rosemary to remember all thy sins,
And pansies for the thoughts I was denied.
I'd send violets to break thy heart within,
But they withered the night my father died.
I will admit, I loved thee once as well
When I had not yet seen what thee became.
A nunnery? Instead I am in hell!
And help thy soul if I should hear thy name.
That I despise is not the strangest thing.
Thou murders and abuses - like the King!

I fall 'neath where the willow gently weeps,
My daisies floating o'er me like a crown.
Through my poor soul the deathly waters creep
And drag me like a stone forever down.
I pray thou sees that thou did kill me too,
The same way that thou killed my father dear.
After all the plights thou has forced me through,
There is no pain for me to linger here.
So who is the poorer now? Thou still lives
To bear the slings of thy atrocities -
The sorts of which no hellish god forgives,
And, even less, avenging Laertes.
Sword and my grave shall not let thee forget.
Woe is thee? No, lord - but it will be yet.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Everything I post until May 10th is going to be about The Great Gatsby.

...That's really the whole point of this post. But, honestly, it's my favorite book, and I'm so excited about the movie I can hardly handle it.

I'm still working on my poetry book and my next novel at the present moment, but they're going to be interrupted a bit by real life taking over, and by my rereading of The Great Gatsby. 

Did you know? Daisy and Gatsby's relationship is somewhat inspired by Zelda Fitzgerald and F. Scott themselves - Zelda originally declined F. Scott's proposal because he was too poor at the time.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Poetry samples

Pieces
A friend in need is a friend indeed -
A cliche I'll never learn,
For I give and give and give and give
And get nothing in return.

So which pieces would you like today?
Maybe a shoulder for a cry,
Or maybe you need a new perspective
And thus plan to snatch my eyes.

Or perhaps you want hands to hold you,
Or a set of lips that can advise.
Take whatever bit you need, friend,
And leave me cut down to size.

Yet, when I need feet to stand,
No one will lend a pair.
You'll just stare down at me with sad surprise
That there's somehow no one there.

A Day in the Life of the Writer's-Blocked
My cat stares up at me expectantly,
Wondering why my pen's not touched the page.
My focus escapes with her eyes on me,
and she leaves, nose turned up, after an age.
My dog is curled up just beneath my feet.
I ponder, scratch his back with just my toes,
But my project's once more left incomplete;
With touch of fur my inspiration goes.
Thunder rolls deep just past my windowpane,
Echoing with dark, stormy nights to tell,
But all my words wash away with the rain
And lightning puts me 'neath an awestruck spell.
My pen to paper - the world cheers me on!
And, in that cheer...all will to write is gone.

To Us
It seems that time has gone and passed us by -
Two children, lost, now women, loved and wed.
Together we did worry, laugh, and cry,
And battled with the thoughts that filled our heads.
You and I, we have faced it all, it's true,
Knowing that we'd always have each other.
My family would be empty without you -
My sister, though we share not blood nor mother.
So, here's to the past and the years to come;
To husbands, children, moves that we'll discuss.
Distance may weather the friendship of some,
But things like that are different for us.
So, here's to us, to sharing joy and strife -
To the best friend I'll cherish all my life.


I've been gathering all my poetry as of late, as I'm considering putting together a collection in the near future. Any thoughts on this idea would be appreciated.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

An unedited sneak-peak at my next novel.



Prologue
“The U.N. finally announced today that the evacuation of the remainder of Scandinavia and Japan is eminent, this following a five year period of questioning whether or not it would be necessary. U.N. investigators confirmed that radiation levels are still too high and resources are still too scarce to sustain an economically stable society. As such, it is expected that citizens will be siphoned into the United States and the rest of Europe, with the United Kingdom and French Germany in particular likely to receive a vast number of those refugees.
“In related news, during her State of the Union address on Thursday President Ahlberg indeed confirmed that further expeditions are to be taken into the nuclear wastelands of China to salvage anything else that remains of their cultural heritage. The Smithsonian –”
“Will you turn that bullshit off?”
The man in the passenger seat eyed his driver warily as he turned the radio knob to silence. “If you’d actually listen to any of the music stations we wouldn’t have to hear this garbage, would we?”
“I’d rather sit in silence than listen to the crap this generation calls music.”
“And that’s why it’s always so pleasant to be in your company,” he grumbled. “Besides, some people still think it’s important to know what’s going on in the world. China –”
“China doesn’t matter,” the driver snapped. “The war’s been over for decades. It’s time to move on.”
“Yeah, that’s why we still do what we do. Because the war’s over.
“We do what we do for the money. Simple as that.”
The conversation warranted no more words, and the only sounds remaining were those of the rain pouring in torrents against the cab and the tires scraping against the road.
The moon hid precariously behind the steel gray clouds as the cargo truck finally backed into the warehouse lot. The driver set the parking break with a sigh before opening his door and stepping out into the storm, his partner at his heels. Methodically the two men rounded the truck and heaved the cargo door open, revealing row upon row of large wooden crates, the word FRAGILE printed in prominent black ink on each and every one of them.
The driver hoisted himself inside and began to shove the nearest crate to the edge. He and his partner lifted it with a grunt, and with eyes turned downward they heaved the heavy box to the side door of the warehouse, where the man in black stood waiting. He looked at the two men coldly as they placed the crate on the concrete before him. “How are they this month?” he demanded calmly.
“Quiet,” the passenger replied uncertainly. The driver said nothing, refusing to even raise his eyes.
Steam hissed from the man in black’s cigarette as he stepped out from under the overhang and into the rain. Like a predator he circled the crate slowly, every step deliberate and every glance calculating. Without warning he stopped, and his steel-toed boot lashed out like a viper, striking just above the FRAGILE label and sending the wood sliding along the rain-slicked ground. A terrified shriek erupted from within.
The man in black smiled in a sickening caricature of emotion as he stomped out his smoldering cigarette. “Bring me the rest.”
More men materialized from the warehouse door as the truck drivers began stacking the boxes just outside. The man in black stood back and watched, arms crossed, as his lackeys pried each crate open with a crowbar and hastily covered the girls’ mouths as they emerged screaming from their claustrophobic hell.
Each waiflike figure was lifted from the boxes by the shoulders, two suited men with guns coercing them to file inside despite some barely alive enough to stand. Somewhere in the middle a small brunette fell to her knees in sobs, her muscles no longer able to support her meager weight. No one had the patience to wait, and she was replaceable. A remorseless gunshot echoed through the night, followed by an uproar of horrified cries and the sound of crowbars striking flesh.
Inside the scene was different. The only sound was silence as the girls viewed the concrete cells that would become their home and the empty women already occupying them. The lady waited for them behind her desk at the far end of the hall, her face expressionless.
The first in line was a quivering blond, so terrified she could scarcely speak. “Name,” the lady demanded impatiently, eyeing the line forming in the corridor. “Skills. Disabilities.”
The girl answered tearfully, shivering as her words were plugged into a database and made her sole identity. She extended her hand at the lady’s insistence, cringing as the tattoo needles pierced the base of her thumb. “57489. All signs point to you being yellow,” she told her. “You’re lucky.”
The lady nodded to the suited man beside her, and with a gloved hand he pushed the girl’s hair aside and wrapped the black leather choker etched with her name around her neck, securing the clasp with a key and cutting off any excess material. A yellow gem was fastened at her throat, and she was ushered off, led by the arm to her own private cell and tossed on the floor carelessly, her key hung on the wall outside as the bars slammed shut.
There she stayed, starving and waiting to be purchased like a dog with the rest.
Outside the truck was being prepped to leave, and the driver stood in the rain without concern as his partner fidgeted beside him. The man in black gave them not a glance as he returned to the warehouse, shutting the doors behind him. A few men remained behind to clean up the mess they’d made of the brunette. “So much for a quiet batch,” the passenger muttered.
He climbed into the cab just as the lackeys finished their work, and he watched sadly as they dragged the body away, taking as much care as if it were garbage. Not a speck of blood remained on the concrete. It was as if she’d never existed.
The driver climbed in with a scowl and turned the key, and the engine roared to life. His partner looked at him seriously as they drove off, unable to erase the scene from his mind. “This can’t be right,” he insisted suddenly. “In fact, this feels inherently wrong.”
Without a word the driver stared ahead for what seemed like a lifetime, before an abbreviated laugh escaped his lips. “You honestly think this has anything to do with right and wrong?”
“These girls are people, Eklund. Girlfriends, wives, sisters, daughters, mothers.”
“They’re a product.”
“Would you be saying that if your little girl –”
“But she’s not!” Eklund snarled, forcing the man in the passenger seat to flinch. “If you think of them as people you’re not going to last long in this job, Mori. They’re a product. It’s not about rights. It’s about money. Leave your conscience at the fucking door.”
Mori shook his head with a bitter chuckle, lighting a cigarette casually as the warehouse disappeared behind a sheet of rain and darkness. “It’s not just about the money.”
“What else would it be about?”
He closed his eyes for only a moment, but the face of the brunette was scarred onto his eyelids – but more haunting was the face of the man who’d fired. There’d been no moral battle behind his eyes at the prospect of taking a human life; he was merely disposing a defective product.
“Power,” Mori finally uttered, a chill shooting through him as he forced the scene from his mind. “It’s about power.”